1. 1 year ago 

   It’s been awhile

   So Martina asked me last week why I don’t post anything on tumblr anymore. So I figure if I’m going to post anything I should at least explain why. Pretty much everyone knows that it’s been 3 months since my cousin/god brother Apollo Max passed away. What happened to him is something I never wanted to experience, something I never thought would happen to me. But then again no one wants to loose a loved one. Since then I went through my stage of loosing it. I gave up on everything, I was lost in my own body. I didn’t care about school, friends, or even myself. After he passed away everything I posted was him. I spent time talking about him, sharing his life, his memory, and what I knew about him. I posted pictures sharing the person that not only impacted my life but everyone that knew about him. And it wasn’t just like this on tumblr but on facebook as well. Slowly I’ve began to move on little by little I’m begining to post things about my life now. I still haven’t allowed myself to change my profile picture of me and him. Not just because I miss him but you could say I’m scared. I’m not ready to move on even though I know I should. I’m scared I’ll forget, even though I know it’s physically impossible to forget him. So pretty much this is why I don’t post anything anymore and why my facebook picture is the same. One day I know I’ll be able to post about other things, but for know its still not time. And I’m not ready. 

   I love you Apollo. I know you probably think you’re Ate is crazy for thinking she’ll forget you. But I just miss you still, a lot. And I know you know that because I tell you every night before I sleep. I know you’re there even though I cant see you.

   This post is dedicated to you Martina Asong, couldn’t tell you in person cuz it’s just to hard.

   Family First <3.

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